God is God and I am not... - Letter from the Rector

Dear St. Christopher Family,

From "Thy Will", By Hillary Scott

I know you're good

But this don't feel good right now

And I know you think

Of things I could never think about

It's hard to count it all joy

Distracted by the noise

Just trying to make sense

Of all your promises

Sometimes I gotta stop

Remember that you're God

And I am not

So

Thy will be done

While driving earlier this week, I heard the song "Thy Will" on the radio, a version of The Lord's Prayer. The verse above stood out to me. It stood out because I heard it (a song I've heard dozens of times) with new ears.

The last two weeks have not felt good. With each new story of devastation I've heard, read, or seen first hand, I've grown more and more tired, frustrated, and angry. I've lost sleep asking the question over and over again "why... why did it happen to this family and that family... why did it happen to this church and that church... why did in happen to this community and that community?"

The frustrating thing is that I've been asking questions that don't have answers, at least not this side of The Kingdom. The verse above reminded me that in the midst of earthly pain that has no answer, there is heavenly joy that knows no end. It reminded me that in the midst of unknowing, the one who knows all walks every step with you and me. God is God and I am not... words have never been truer!

As we continue to navigate the days, weeks, and months ahead, I remind you that it's okay to be frustrated... it's okay to be angry. It's not, however, okay to stay there. Remember the words of Psalm 31 which say in part:

"You are indeed my rock and my fortress; for your name's sake lead me and guide me, take me out of the net that is hidden for me, for you are my refuge. Into your hand I commit my spirit; you have redeemed me, O Lord, faithful God."

Brothers and sisters, rest in Christ Jesus, who's hope is certain, who's faith is sure, and who's love is never-ending!

Faithfully,

Father Brian+